You heard it here first!
Details soon to come.
This is one of the craziest, lack of making sense decisions I've made in ages.
You see, it's like this. I am possibly about to lose just about everything that I've worked for and something has to give here soon. I've made myself sick with work. I've worked on average 14 hours a day for 6-7 days a week for two years. I've not gained anything from my efforts so far except for one really valuable thing, - that is, finding and knowing for sure that I have really good friends that I wouldn't trade for the world. (YOU know who YOU are.)
But other than that, I've watched things crumble around me this whole time while working for the day I will magically save it all. And maybe I still will. But I've been so sick lately and so depressed that I have basically lost most of the joy in my life because of it.
Now, today I found out that I am even worse off than I thought. What a way to start out the new year right? And I was sitting here thinking about desperation moves and then it hit me. Although it will be expensive and I should spend the money some other way, if I did, it wouldn't be enough to make that much difference, so ... I thought at least I should go out with a smile and some peace in my heart.
I've wanted to go home for years. I am not planning to stay more than six weeks but at the end of that six weeks either I will accept my losses and come back to close down shop in more ways than one, be renewed and restored to find the answers I can't see for the life of me now, or something magical will happen and turn my world back right side up.
I can still work while I am there but it won't be nearly as much!
I don't care at this moment what happens. I just know my heart home will heal me.
That I get to spend time with my son and even a week with my daughter at the same time because she will be there a bit while I am, is amazing.
I'm about to buy the ticket right now.
No it makes no sense at all and at the same time all the sense in the world.
I'm already starting to feel the aloha!
This is the first thing I've had to look forward to in years.
I haven't r...
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sorry posted in worng place :/
Thanks Marge! You are right and when I wrote this I hadn't thought of it that way. After reading the comments and especially yours it seems like that is really what is going on here. I guess when you've clung until your fingers are numb and scratched until you are bloodly raw there is nothing left ...
This situation isn't going to get better by you staying put and worrying yourself sick over it. You've already tried that route.
Giving yourself sometime to just enjoy yourself and to be with family is the best th...